Okay, while I'm all for fun and games, I have a problem I need help coming to a final decision on.


Military

I'm thinking about joining the U.S. Marines, but at the same time I'm not sure if I should or not. What do you all think would be the best course of action: join, get the benifits, but loose my freedoms as a citizen and years of my life and more time away from all of you guys, or not join and keep going my course?

Star Trekkin'

It's the name of the comic-and-story combo I'm working on with Miliki, Dimitri, Farla, Naru and I all as the crew of the "U.S.D. Catfish" - a ploy of Star Trek born of boredom, randomness, and the song of the same name by The Firm. Gloy!

Crusade of Truth

It's a sub-story that happens at the end of another one in development, which follows me (Ruby) though my journey to find a reason as to why all of the fighting that has erupted (my demons, the Death Empire, ect.) so I may grasp the reasoning behind it all and begin to heal from the Dimention Crisis. More to come on it.

Contact!

You all know I'm gone for who knows how long come this Friday - however, you can contact me on MSN Messenger or, if you have an Xbox Live account, you can add me on there and we can chat that way.

MSN address is on my front page.
XBL account name is Desedro.


I hope to get some answers, mainly for the military section, by Friday - I need my final answer by then. I want more advice from some of the closest people to me before I make a decision, because once I make it, there's no going back. What happens from here on is now in all of your hands; give your honest opinion, and I shall know where you all stand.

Until tomorrow, Adios amigos!

...I manage to show up for a few hours for the first time in...5 months? 6? 7?? Let me count...about 9 months?!? HOLY CHEESE ON RYE!!!! x.=.x Geez, time goes by too quickly...and it's been utter torture being away from everyone here!!! But I guess it's time I get to explaining myself...less than 30 minutes to do so, sadly...


Many Moons Hath Passed

It's true. Nine months have roughly passed since I was last logged in here. September was when the main computer died, and I had to resort to use of two people's laptops until the last of them moved out in November - but what was worse is that I couldn't be here at dA. Of course, I failed at that, but they never knew. ^.=.^ Crazy people don't realize this is a safe site, but ah well...can't cure stupid. If we could, Naru would be smart.

Which would be bad.


No Balloons or Cake!

Crazy, how while I was gone, my hatchday/birthday came by. I'm 18 now, and I didn't get a chocolate cake. I didn't get a cake at all!! I did get the relief that I had a day of vacation after my hatchday before school was back in...so I got to celebrate January 3rd without worrying about school the next day. Score!!


Major Screw-Up

I did. I failed two English classes and a Math class. D'oh!!! >.=.< Proceed to give me a good lecturing, because I may actually listen to you guys - and have a more positive response and reaction to it than I did when my step-dad and English 12 teacher esentially called me a screw-up (would use the proper term, but this IS a public library...and I hate swearing, too). So, to get my deploma, I have to wait a year before I can make up those classes and graduate next school year...yay...


To wrap it all up, I feel that if I had internet (and therefore some drive and motivation to go through all of the dung that school can be), I would've done better. Not just in reference to the two research papers for my English classes...but with the support of everyone here that I know care about me, I wouldn't have been so alone through it all.

My dad, Ahgjan (for those of you who don't know, I adopted him to be my dad), told me a few days ago that I'm never truly alone, and I know that. A part of all of you live in my heart and soul, as a part of mine resides in all of you. You all help shape me, for better or worse, into the entity I am today, tomorrow, and forever more. I just have a hard time feeling that bond when Time has been corroding it for such a long time.

But with my return (however brief), I feel that bond returning, and I feel as if I'm not alone anymore. Because I know that you're all standing by my side, and that together, we can overcome any and all obstacles...except Naru's stupidity - can't cure stupid yet, so he's a problem to handle another day. But with all seriousness and from the depths of my war-torn heart.....


Thank you, everyone, for being there for me. In good or bad, light or dark, you were all always there. Thanks everyone...

'Through thick and thin,
Light and Dark,
Life and Death,
I'll be there for you...'


~Ruby


P.S. Cariyaga is my friend from school - I can keep in touch with him until I get some interwebs to a computer myself, so if you need an update on how I am or anything of the sort, ask him, okay?

Also, for those of you who play games, know of Square Enix, and like their RPG games (not just Final Fantasy), then check out 'The Last Remnant'. You might like it, and for it being 2 disks in length, it's well worth it. Of course, you need a Xbox 360 to play it, but that might not be a problem. ^.=.^ Until next time...

Hikari-tsuzuke yo ano hoshi no you ni.
Let's shine on like that star.

North star, at that - it's the brightest!

That's what Naru would say, if he didn't tell you to answer 42. BOINK!


A New Start

Well, some of you might remember (better yet, I expect NONE of you to remember) that I once had an FA account a year or two ago. Well, I stopped logging in because I lost my password to the account, so it's a blank sitting there - dead, unused, yet still taking up space.

I mention this because I'm planning on posing my work from here up there too, for those who look around there and not here, plus it'll give some of you here that have an account there something to do while you wait for whatever you're waiting for to happen - could be a cooking pizza, time to go to work/school, or just counting down until you shout something to someone because you're timing something for 'em.

That new FA account is Almoraan, by the way.


Rain, Rain, Go Away...

Due to that stupid hurricane, we're getting a lot of rain. I hate the rain because it's wet, it's usually cold, it makes the grass grow faster, it floods the bridge on my road, and there's one other thing that I don't like rain for...but I can't remember. Pretty sure it's linked to the grass growing, but I dunno.

Stupid rain...*shakes fist at a bowl of mac & cheese*


Chaos

I thrive in it, so it's only natural for it to be a part of me. Long story short, don't be surprised if I seem a bit...well, I dunno how to say it. Just don't be too surprised if I make more intelligent, deep responses at times - I'm in one of those moods.

Oh, and I entered the rare Art Trance today...last time I did that, it was when I drew Guilmon; time before that, which was the first time, I drew Aledon Rex. 3 times so far, in a few years of being an artist...go figure why it's rare. XD


[EDIT: I can't believe I forgot!!! I'll be sure to work on getting some artwork posted up sometime next week, due to all of this rain putting my scanning ideas on hold. Also, I might have a new story to let you guys read that's an RP a friend and I are doing...so keep an eye out for that, too!]

Well, school’s started up again…and I’m looking forward to it. By no means is that a bad thing, it’s just the fact that with all the negative chaos (a.k.a. loud, noisy, somewhat destructive cousins and arguing uncle & aunt for 90% of that)…getting out of the house and doing something new and fun isn’t all that bad.

Yeah, might regret those words a bit later on – always do. XD

Tough Decision

As if the comprehension of school and getting up earlier than 11am-1pm wasn’t bad enough, I’ve got a bit of a love problem…yeah, wonderful thing to have trouble in! *hint: SARCASM* There’s this girl I really love and have feelings for, is practically exactly like me aside from a few differences (gender is one of them, so take me and adjust for a female and you’ve got her for the most part), but she likes another guy and besides, she lives in Australia. Thing is, we’ve talked about a future together and made plans already, so I’m unsure what to do.

Then, there’s this girl at school who’s been betrayed and back-stabbed by “boyfriends” in the past so much that it’s gotten to the point that her last one got her kicked out of school and under house arrest for running away (her mother is rather…over-dramatic about things – oh, and cruel) because he convinced her that he’d take care of her before turning around and getting her in trouble. So, she needs someone she knows she can rely on, who really cares, and is honest with her. I happen to be that kind of guy, and the thing is, I have some feelings for her myself – I even gave her one of my charms I kept for good luck for her to keep, as a gift I wanted to give to her before the end of the recently-passed school year.

My problem is this: I want to be devoted and true to only one, and not split it between two girls – therefore, I have to decide which one to devote my love to. One I have a lot in common with but we’re miles apart, then there’s the other that I have much in common with and she goes to school with me, but might result in a somewhat rocky relationship. Which one should I go for, and how do I break the news to the one I shouldn’t be with? I ask for advice more than answers, as I want to be the one to make the final decision myself.

I just need advice from the view-point of others to better understand what I should do.


Aaaaaarrrrrtttttt!!!!

Yeah, I’m getting to it…*grins* If all goes well, I’ll be posting up tons of new artwork sometime soon…I’ll just have to figure out how to pull this off, though. For now, though, I’ll try to find time to get some artwork from a few years ago up here that I scanned before last school year ended. Patience…argh, how I hate it sometimes. XD


Final Note

It’s a tag, actually – that way, it’s a little bit random and I don’t have to make more than one journal for it. Stole it from because I can.
And will.

End of line. *makes The Face*

1) Post these rules.
2) Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3) At the end, you have to choose and tag up to 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4) Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5) No tag-backs.

1. I like dinosaurs a lot, though I like dragons a bit more than them – but they’re both rather high on my “I Like” list, if I ever had one.

2. My liking for music is still growing – mainly with the introduction to new bands via random links I get from friends and family. The latest ones happen to be Apocalyptica and Sonata Arctica, to name two.

3. I still haven’t drawn even a sloppy picture of Shi ‘kara yet – even though several people have asked for one.

4. I love art to the point that I’d give myself three separate art classes for a whole semester just to give myself something art-related to do and never have an excuse to not draw.

5. Sadly, instead of what is stated in #4, I have to settle for two art classes per semester – still means I have a lot of artwork to do!

6. I like swords.

7. For the sake of doing so, I went to my first day of school in Alex’s outfit again – same as last year, too. This time, though…I had hair gel but never used it. I also got up at 5am; this is unheard of from me in my entire school career.

8. I am still looking for people to be in my comic, which I have yet to make any sort of progress on in terms of plot or pages still. I am waiting until I have one or two more members of the party recruited and an “alternate” DM before I continue planning the plot. I also have to work on the profiles for everyone, so yeah…still much work to do, so help if you want!

9. One more than supposed to, but I did some comics during the end of summer vacation – part of a 5-comic series focused somewhat around Naru. It’s safe to say he’s a star in all five of them, so he should be happy with that. That, and his new shipment of artillery shells that came in today for something…I’d say my Mech, but I doubt it.


I tag none, because it’s easier for you guys to take it if you want to.
And my computer’s slow.

Stupid computer…

I'm doing much better for a magnitude of reasons, so I'll list the recient events that matter the most, both good and bad.

The Pain One Can Bear

I've come to terms with something, as well as an explanation and an understanding of it. I promised that I would share my problems and let you all help me with them, but most of the time I don't speak of my problems. The reason is that they're usually either petty or something I have to handle alone. But I've come to understand that I've taken that approach with any and all problems I have, and never talk about any of them, even though they're not petty and they're not personal; I will try to work on that and fix that problem, and keep my promise once more.

Ideas of A Soul Society

I've begun to realize that I may have become kind of...distant, in the past before I fell into darkness. This has been the words of one, but I want to know if this is true to all - if so, then I want to fix it, but know that I only intend to do things for the best of others, and only with the best of intentions.

The Healing Begins

I got into a fight with Scot "Welshdrag" Taylor last night, and I'm sure some of you know about him. He's the reason why I'm asking these questions, because that's how he saw me and I want to know if that's honestly how you all feel. But after he and I stopped being friends, I felt a burden lift from my shoulders, especially when I finished things calmly and asked him to learn to really know someone; weither he does, though, is up to him - plus, with his immature way of acting, I doubt he listened to my last words of wisdom to him. He claimed to not understand me, and part of the problem might be that he doesn't listen to one's heart and soul, only their mind.

Now, with that problem put behind me, I feel better and I've noticed that the grasp the darkness has on me has weakened - it's strength is waning, but it's persistant. I'm not giving up; I will recover, I promise.

A Reason To Look Ahead

With school approaching soon, I've been looking for ways to recover so I don't start school like this. With it fading quickly lately, I'm glad I'm making progress. I've been re-watching Bleach lately too, and it's been quite the inspiration to me, especially with the position I'm in. If everything keeps going the way it is, I should be back to normal in no time. ^.=.^

A Last Note...For Now

All I ask from you all is to keep being yourself, and do what you have to do to be yourself.

Hikari-tsuzuke yo ano hoshi no you ni.


Let's shine on like that star.
All of us.